Disappearing Twins – The Guilt of Miscarriage
By Lipa Rath
Mar 02 2026
Disappearing Twins – The Guilt of Miscarriage
Intro
In many religions abortion is not allowed, and yet in some it is. But for a mother, regardless of doctrine, it can remain a deep guilt to live with — especially when she discovers that her unborn child has Down’s syndrome and decides to terminate the pregnancy.
Moving through the unknown is always a fascinating discovery for me.
The story:
My client, a lady in her late 40s, worked with the World Health Organisation came to me for a session while she was going through a divorce. She told me her greatest dream had always been to have children of her own.
Her childhood wasn’t easy. Her father had met with an accident and was paralysed for years until he passed away. Later in her late 30s, she met her husband online, but she soon discovered something very strange about his relationship with his parents. He had a condition: “Once you become good friends with my parents, then we will become close.”
This was hard for her. All she wanted from the marriage was a child.
Time was running out, and eventually he agreed to IVF. Tears welled up in her eyes and she started crying, and said, “Lipa, that was the most beautiful day of my life when I discovered I was going to have twin boys.”
But things were becoming increasingly difficult at home. There was constant interference and discord with her husband and his family. In the midst of this turmoil, she learned that one of the twins had died in the womb.
The doctors then recommended further tests to determine if there were any developmental abnormalities with the other foetus. To her horror, they found that the second baby had Down’s syndrome.
The tension at home escalated. One evening, feeling unsafe, she called the police to take her to a safer place. Soon after, she made the painful decision to terminate the pregnancy.
How are my twins doing now?
One of her most important questions during the session was: Who were these two souls who came to me? And could she know how they are doing now?
What her Higher Self showed her completely blew her mind.
She could not see the one who disappeared from her womb. But the one who had been diagnosed with Down’s syndrome appeared before her — now living in New York as a young boy, healthy in body and bright in mind.
She was overjoyed seeing him grow up in another family, thriving and happy. She wanted nothing more for him.
Womb as a Sacred Portal:
What became clear was that this soul with Down Syndrome had carried a karmic imbalance. He had entered her womb with a deformity, and the termination ended that karmic cycle — giving him another opportunity to return in a healthy, normal body.
She felt elated. First, knowing that her unborn child was thriving in another part of the world. She could see that he was safe and perhaps even living a life with circumstances she may not have been able to offer.
Her womb, she realised, had been part of a sacred ritual. It had been offered as a passage — a doorway — so that a soul could rebalance and return anew. It was a moment of deep blessing and honour.
She felt deeply valued — commissioned for this act — a vessel of transformation for a soul she cared for and called her son. Tears flowed down her cheeks as we began to wrap up the journey.
She had come into the session with very low self-esteem. She struggled with colleagues, fought with siblings, and carried a heavy self-image. But within a few hours, something shifted.
This visceral experience changed everything.
Sometimes, what we call loss is not punishment – it is participation in something far greater than what we can comprehend. And when seen from the soul’s lens, guilt dissolves into grace.
She left feeling validated and trusted- worthy of more abundance and love.
Lipa Rath
QHHT Level-3 Practitioner
Order of Dolores Cannon
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